Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Chomp MooOoOoo~ Chomp.
You know, it's depressing to know that someone is on the path of quiting smoking and is actually clean for 3 weeks but only to find her getting own pack of filth stick when she had a tiff with her boyfriend.
It breaks my heart and it totally pisses me off.
What's the use of doing this stupid thing when u know that he wouldn't care right at the moment. Is this the way to get the attention that you are looking for?
How naive can you be?
Wake up my dear.
It just remind me of the stupid thing my "friend" did back in secondary school days. Just cause the guys she fancied did not return the feeling, she got herself a can of beer and drank it.
Come one la! what do you think that 1 can of beer would do? Suddenly make him realize that he cannot afford losing You and then reciprocate the feelings?
Well, if you hope that is the case, drink it INFRONT of him. Not behind of him, under a HDB flat.
I hate the fact she smokes. With her not smoking, we stopped having rows. Now, it's all back to square one. The rows will start, she will start to reeks with smoke all over again. Rows about her smelling like crap. Rows about her reeking the toilet up right before I am about to use it.
Fuck it! I hate Smokers. For those who think smoking is cool and make you adult like and allows u to have the attention you need, ought to get whack by my laptop 5 on each side of your face.
This is what relationship does to one.
It make us stupid. It make us become idiots unknowingly. It is not because I have a high expectation in my ideal guy that made me single.
It's because I do not want to dumb, stupid and an idiot. Until I know I am confidant I would not be an idiot and handle things maturely, getting into a relationship is out of the picture. And that could possibly mean Never.
The Whining Fat Cow
4:49 PM
Monday, July 21, 2008
Chomp MooOoOoo~ Chomp.
I really have no idea what to blog.
I guess the most happening thing that happened to me this week was meeting up with my cliques.
Finally got to see Edwin, with is muscles and all. haha. It was pretty amazing as all this while he's home sitting infront of the com playing games all the way so naturally there was no muscle. Now, he's all tan and fit. oh, oh and he's botak head is good to touch too..
It's was really quite fun to be able to meet them up for supper. The laughter, the joke, the odd silence.
Alright then i guess that is pretty much it. It's FTT tomorrow so wish me luck~
The Whining Fat Cow
1:08 AM
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Chomp MooOoOoo~ Chomp.
As much as I love to say that my Sunday is a blast, however I can not, as I am here in my room still under my comforter typing away for this post.
Everything just falls into back into place and my being away was like a dream from a deep, deep slumber. My mom is back to ignoring me and only after several attempt of tapping on her shoulder she would then acknowledge my existence and me wanting a convey with her.
I would be sleeping to 11am or 12 pm. waking up to find my dad gone (to my grams place), my brother disappeared (to my neighbor's), Mom using the computer an sis who is still sleep and will only be up at 2pm.
Everything out there changes but not within the 4 walls of my life. To think that there is a saying " The only thing that is constant is change." Imply that on my family and boom it will go all the way down the sewer.
Anyway, ever since I am back, I have been spending like money runs off the tap. This week alone, I probably spent a total of 500 bucks. Imagine that. I got myself a new Handphone, a new MP3 - Samsung YP-T10, a wardrobe organizer from Ikea and 3 novels.
I so need a job, a life and maybe a rich husband (anyone up for it?).
Sigh, and it's off to gym tomorrow need to lose of the extra fats.
*Dead panned* Can my life get anymore interesting?
P/S: Ever felt that you always fall for the wrong person? Ya, me too.
The Whining Fat Cow
1:58 PM
Friday, July 11, 2008
Chomp MooOoOoo~ Chomp.
The Picture that made my tears welled up. So cute can.. and she looked so sad.. Must be the Sick owner! haha I am kidding.. No offense ar!
Anyway, I got myself a new handphone. Like finally can. I got myself a Sony Ericsson C902 and this is the kind of picture it takes.
I would say Not bad for a camera phone. love my very own red C902. ^^
The Whining Fat Cow
12:08 AM
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Chomp MooOoOoo~ Chomp.
I was reading an article from a couple of days back regarding weddings.
Comparing wedding now and the past, it is definitely much more expensive. Having skyrocketing prices of item such as oil, rice, water, electricity and basically everything it's a miracle that people are still getting married and forming family.
Even the lady being reported had nightmare regarding money problem. Everyone wants a good life when married. A car, a house and a good career. Now tell me with everything skyrocketing how do 1 actually does achieve all that?
Maybe I am still a child at heart being naive or maybe I am being realistic. At times like this, how would u know that the person you are marrying is the right guy for you so that you would not put the money you have invested on the wedding to waste by getting a divorce 2-3 years down the road.
I really admire what my parents did to have us and still give us a comfortable life. We may not be rich, in fact we are only average in the government eyes.
So what is love, actually? How do you know he/she is the one that you want to spend the rest of your life with? How do you know u really really can be committed to this relationship with that certain person.
The Whining Fat Cow
10:03 PM
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Chomp MooOoOoo~ Chomp.
I think it's high time I go on a diet..
These trip had gained me weight which i have nv ever, Ever wanted!
sad.. plus I've been having runs ever since I am back from china... HoW!!!
I'm going to slap myself whenever I am hungry and stop myself from eating too much....
Ok I'm going to have my dinner now.
The Whining Fat Cow
7:53 PM
Chomp MooOoOoo~ Chomp.
People watching. Literally~
Ice blended Mocha or Ice blended peach?
Ice blended peach it is! I love peach!
Kopi Dao (Coffee bean).
ohh~ flood. it's ankle deep.
I am absolutely sick of threads! Seriously!!
All the stuff that I have to drag home!. Way overload. all Mine ok.
Cold Stone Ice cream!! I wan. My mentor still owes me ice cream.
The Whining Fat Cow
1:19 PM
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Chomp MooOoOoo~ Chomp.
三个月过了，我回来了。
没想到着三个的时间过的那么快。妈妈说我胖了，朋友说我变cheena了。虽然在回家的路上有点依依不舍，散心难过。But the moment I saw my parents, the moment my phone is flooded with msg from my friends, all the sadness and reluctance faded away. Home is definitely where I belong be it through the good times and the bad.
Being in china for 3 short months I've come to realize that my English had deteriorate so much that it's scaring the crap out of me. This 3 months may be attachment period but it felt like a 3 months worth of holiday despite being really busy at times and having to do O.T till 8pm or worst 10.30pm(but i enjoyed myself when we OT-ed till 10.30 pm that day). It was really a good 3 month.
As much as I love it there, home is still home. At one point, I felt a great sense of helplessness for I have lost my freedom and the time for myself.
Solitary time is really important to me. It give me time to recharge myself, reflect, reminisce and just plainly enjoy the quietness. Sometime being around everyone for 24/7 requires me to put up a mask to hide my true feeling.
I admit, I am headstrong, I always want to have the last say, I snap easily and i like things to go my way. I ain't perfect. I don socialize well either. These 3 months made me realize I either have to try to accommodate the majority or I can be the girl that no one wants to hang out with during playtime in kindergarten.
There's no such thing as being yourself. But who am I to try to please everyone I know? Why do I have the desire to please everyone I know when I know that it's gonna make me feel like crap after that? Am I suffering certain psychological disorder?
When you have enough shit in your life, you just want to cut off from all this nonsense. I treasure the people that crosses my path, I chose to believe that they are good till they screwed everything up.
I guess it's high time I stop condemning my self. So what if you are the sort that do not have a high social profile. So what if you only have a couple of friends who will be there for you be it good or bad and does not get angry when you change plans at the last minute. They are the ones that matter.
Jeez, I think I digressed way too much. This is what solitary time does to me after 3 months without it.
Anyway, say hello to boo boo 1 and boo boo 2.
This is what happens when I try to heave a 33kg luggage on to my trolley. Not forgetting all the muscle ache I have after that. Well, of what little muscle that I have that is.
being on the plan on my way here, I was filled with reluctance and were practically gloomy on the 5 hour trips back. 3 months may be short but friendship and attachment had been formed. Be it with the ah yi at the hostel, the driver that drove us around to place that we want to go, staffs in the warehouse where we did all our projects and last but not least the management team that took care of us fastidiously.
When we work till late, they will be worried that we are hungry and they shoo us home or bring us out for lunch/dinner. They would also bring us out to places of attraction despite being there before. Although we all may not be very very close, they still treated us like part of their family.
Yi rui Jie, Fu Ling Jie, I'll miss you guys. (if you are wondering why is it a pic of them and esther it's cause my pic is still in fu ling jie camera).
Yi rui jie, I will miss the time when you brought us to the Korean restaurant for lunch and then to the wet market to get the extremely sweet and juicy honeydew and peaches.
Fu Ling Jie, I will miss the finally week with you. Us in your factory doing the hundreds and hundreds of threads and you getting xiao cao to visit us ever so ofter for u worry way to much. You're afraid that we do not have enough water to drink, you worry that we are hungry and decided to end work earlier then you usually do. You bringing us out for lunch and dinner jus cause it is our last week here and you laughing at all our silliness or our so-very-unfunny comments. We really enjoyed doing the packaging when you are meeting a deadline despite being totally exhausted.
I would miss everyone there! ~.~ Poh fong jie, Flor, Chui Ling, both Ah yi who help us cooked all our meals and the Ah yi who washes our clothing for us.
I would miss Guang Quan Jie. The shopping district that make Bugis Village look minuscule and where we used to hang out at every week ends bargaining and chilling at starbucks, people watching.
I would miss looking like a auntie with not a care to my fashion sense for there will be no chance where by I will meet someone I recognize on the street. Heaving my bag of loots all around banging onto people for people there are plainly rude as well.
I would miss having my bags filled to the brim with cheap goods and having ppl asking me where am I from so I can lie through my teeth saying that I am from all sorts of places that I have never been too before.
I would miss shopping at AuChan and Carrefour weekly, spending hundreds of renminbi on snacks and munching on my Glico products such as pejoy and pretz.
This chapter of my life have come to an end. It time to create a new chapter moving forward and remembering the good times when I am down to put a smile on my face. It's fate that bought all of us together. It fate that allow me to meet you guys.
If only...
If only... good things do not come to an end. But sadly all good things come to an end.
The Whining Fat Cow
1:58 AM